wtf Dec 17 2010

What do you do when you don't know what to think, what to say, what to write; and to make sense of anything you want to think you need someone else's side to it [which btw is inaccessible to you]. In this screwed up mess you get so deep down into the shithole of your Ego that eventually nothing makes sense. And the entity which is you gets into the act of playing a ball game inside your head. And the other voices get excited and go haywire. After a million phone calls and umpteen messages, and a series of conclusions that change in intensity and polarity, you just center on one point and that is buy your terms with waiting [which you know you can't because a lotta things are passing you by]. So you just pass out. Amidst these opposing voices there also lies a voice that wants to say 'SHUT UP'. But, no body hears it. It is then you know this is how it starts..After a while you wake up with a terrible headache and a hangover which ,you know, never had a positive side to it.