8.6.07

There’s no return to innocence



Again and again
You slam the door
Again and again
I knock and bring you out once more

Why I come and why I leave
Why I hate and still believe
Why you care and why you don’t
Are some of the things that are unknown

You laugh and I cry
You don’t even know when I die
You come and kiss me
Bringing back the life in me
But what has died
Never is alive
You know it but still you play assassin nine

I murder too
When I really want to
But only what’s in me
Punishing you for this felony

My wounds never heal
They act like a seal
Never again I want you to invade
What you scraped leaving me to bleed in vain

Never again will I love you
If you don’t care that I hate you
And what reason then will I have to hate you
Stab but then don’t feel bad
You don’t deserve what I no more have

If that’s coz of you I cry
And its coz of you that I am dry
But once dry I’ll never have the same cry
And that will be a final end
You are right I don’t understand
But then do you really stand

Can’t believe I love you
Or maybe it’s not really true
But since I felt it
I am living it through
Till when that’s only up to you
To grow is what’s left to do
And that we can’t undo


In an instant a caress turns to fondling
Why do you have to keep me struggling?
I am glad that you happened to me
But then stop strangling the child in me
Don’t make me grow so fast
I have shown you my innocence
Don’t try to make it my past

5 comments:

  1. Extremely revealin but that just leads to respect for ur unrestricted flow , never was a believer in rhymin but must say for ur age , u write really well.

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  2. ritika...this onez written really well

    My wounds never heal
    They act like a seal
    Never again I want you to invade

    these are the lines which i liked the most....

    "wounds acting like a seal" is a real nice oxymoronic expression...

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  3. Amazing...
    on the contrary to the title, i find it a soliloquy of an innocent but travailed mind...

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  4. Love poems are probably the only ones that can be easier to write than read. Which is not to undermine this but to point towards the life of emotions outside poetry. Revealing, as a comment said before me, yes, but delicate enough to haunt a bit.
    - 2014

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    1. easier to write than read, thats so true >.< But I had forgotten these were here too... Now its just embarrassing. Seven years later...

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